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Fri Nov 13, 2009, 7:06 PM
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EDIT: The "Flying Pink Cats" have just recorded their first hit, "I'm Tom's Dad." It's on youtube, and I suggest checking it out: [link] For those who don't know, that other dude is Leo, and Tom is one of my roommates. And my first born son. Oh, and the sound quality isn't great because it was recorded on my webcam without any special equipment.
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I guess I've become kind of disinterested in recording my thoughts of late, so I haven't been updating this or my lj at all. I'm not trying to abandon you guys, it's nothing personal, just me.

Things have been...eh. Stressful. Graduation is quickly approaching, and all I can think about is what's on the other side of that metaphoric cliff. All I know for sure is rent, bills, and student loan payments. Having an income lined up would significantly reduce my stress level. Thoughts of giving up and moving back in with my dad sometimes seem more appealing than they should. A year ago, I'd've considered that quitting. Now? Eh...what's losing a little pride?

I think part of the reason too is that, last time I was home, :iconlunarstudioxk: really reminded me why I got into this in the first place - I enjoy it. Well, I did. Sometimes, I don't. Sometimes, I think it's just more work. It's a terrible feeling to know that something I once enjoyed so much is now a draining mental labor, with no feelings of fulfillment to accompany it. Maybe I'm just in a slump though...maybe the enjoyment will come back. I don't really know what it is.

My greatest source of enjoyment of late has been the bass. I've taken to jamming with a friend, Leo, around weekly (usually Mondays), and I still find music as fulfilling and exciting as I used to. Whether we're writing retarded songs about my roommates or jamming to Queen's "Crazy Little Thing Called Love," playing with someone else is way more fun and always leaves me with a smile. Eventually I hope we find a drummer and a dedicated vocalist...then we could have a little ensemble or something.

I've been reading an essay entitled "Industrial Society and Its Future" by Theodore Kaczynski, a man today considered a radical, maybe even a terrorist. He was actually very intelligent and had some interesting ideas on society and technology, and their interaction. If you feel like an intellectual read, the entire paper is online here: [link] I plan on having some form of public discussion on it in a while, probably through a forum of some sort, so tell me if you read it and would like to discuss.

More time? I need more time. Life moves too damn fast. I'd always wondered what the world looks like from the perspective of the oldest trees...the seasons must pass like hours for them. But just at my relatively slothful rate, time moves too quickly.

I think one of the (few) girls here at DeVry has a thing for me. I might just pursue it. What's the worst that could happen, right?

...well, actually, turns out a lot of bad could happen. Maybe I won't bother.

  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Foxboro Hot Tubs
  • Reading: Thirteen Reasons Why
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: Nation Red
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: need coffee

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Hunkered down in a zombie-proofed fortress
  • Interests: Programming, Video Games, Porgramming Video Games
  • Favourite movie: Dawn of the Dead - the good one (from 2004)
  • Favourite band or musician: They Might Be Giants, Cake
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternative/Alt Rock
  • Favourite artist: Dalí, Jhonen Vasquez
  • Favourite poet or writer: Poe, Vonnegut
  • Operating System: Windows Vista
  • MP3 player of choice: Sansa Little Monster
  • Favourite game: Portal, OOT
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Personal Quote: ///Written by Dorthu
  • Tools of the Trade: Dev C++, SDL, Textpad, Pencil + Pen (or Sharpie), Photochop

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:iconelfprincess587:
Okay so about the no internet thing. My family lives in the hicks (if you don't know what that means, but I'm sure you do it's the middle of nowhere woods). I love it there though because we have 30 acres and are closest neighbor is a 5 minute drive up the road. But that also means companies like Comcast doesn't want to come to us. So we don't have cable or internet. I tried a million times talking my Dad into the dish or something but he says "I don't want that ugly thing on my house" every time. lol parents right? Anyway so today I'm leaving at about 1 so I'll talk to you monday if you're not on here before then. It's really great haven made a friend :) Though as you can tell I'm a real loser lol. Hope your weekend is great!

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I'm alone
Yeah, I don't know if I can face the night
I'm in tears and the cryin' that I do is for you
I want your love - Let's break the walls between us
Don't make it tough - I'll put away my pride
Enough's enough I've suffered and I've seen the light
:icondorthu:
Ah, the middle of nowhere. Some crazy part of me wants to actually end up there when I get older so I can finally get away from the hustle, bustle and stress of everyday life and focus on the simpler, more pleasant things for my last several years. I've often thought, despite diving head-first into a computer-dependent industry, that television, computers and cell phones cause a lot more misery than they're worth. I was once asked if I remembered what it was like before cell phones - my answer was this: "Yeah, back then if my girlfriend called me and I didn't answer it meant I wasn't home, no explanation required, and I'd call her back when I got home. Noone got mad or yelled at me." Think about it, life was just easier.

But, before I get off on my "technology is evil" rant and sound like a nutjob (because really I do love technology, it's so much fun!), hope you have fun and also have a great weekend! ^^ and you're not a loser, shut up :p

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///Dorthu
DorthuGames.com :: [link]
:iconelfprincess587:
Yea I'm a loser. >< Okay so this is going to be hard, but my family has asked me to moved back with them. (literally they just called. And they couldn't have asked me when I was there?) I will probably be gone by the time you see this. My mom is sick and my dad needs help taking care of the animals. (We own a farm.) I really liked talking with you...and I hope to be back someday.

I hope the best for you. I wish we had gotten to know each other a bit more and then I would have given you my phone number so we could keep talking. I guess it's being from the middle of no where, but I just don't trust giving my number to just anyone. Sorry, please understand. :tighthug:

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I'm alone
Yeah, I don't know if I can face the night
I'm in tears and the cryin' that I do is for you
I want your love - Let's break the walls between us
Don't make it tough - I'll put away my pride
Enough's enough I've suffered and I've seen the light
:icondorthu:
I totally do ^^ no worries. I hope your mom gets well soon, that it's nothing serious and all, and good luck to you. Hope to hear from you again sometime!

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///Dorthu
DorthuGames.com :: [link]
:iconelfprincess587:
My bad. Arlington is in Maryland I think and that's where my one aunt lives. I can't remember the city we were looking at then. It began with an A...Hopefully it will come to me.
:iconelfprincess587:
Ok my bad again. It is Arlington, and my aunt lives in Aberdeen, Maryland. Gosh I am so bad with cities and directions. I had to ask my Mom who lived where lol. So thought I was crazy :(
:iconelfprincess587:
Lol you probably think I'm a crazy person after that little argument with myself. I thought Arlington was there near the Crystal City, but then I had myself convinced it was in Maryland lol.
:icondorthu:
^^; I was gonna say, I'm in Arlington right now, and also in VA and Crystal City. It happens though :p no worries

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///Dorthu
DorthuGames.com :: [link]
:iconelfprincess587:
Wow you are? I almost moved there because I love my cousin (who's mom is the one that lives in Maryland). Most my family is like me and loves to move. Maybe I'll see you sometime when I visit him!

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